Contents
Foreword
1
Introduction
2
The Beginning:
or: the day he heard
HER
name
3
The first Beginning
4
The Roots of Evil
5
First sprouts of real love?
6
The First Denial
7
Adam, Eve & The unambiguous Signs of Love
8
Second Denial — And First Doubts
9
Suprising Sensations
10
Why?
11
Bless you!
12
Return of the Signs
13
More Signs — More Fear
14
Wait and See?
15
A Withering Soul?
16
Day of Surprise
17
Decay or new Growth?
18
Stupefied Soul
19
The Chamber of Secrets has been opened
20
Flashbacks
21
The End?
22
Ignorant Crowd?
23
Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door
24
Smashed to the Ground — In Front of Heaven’s Door
25
Last Visit to Heaven / Hell — The End?
26
Reflections
27
What now?
28
Nothing happens
29
What the heck is going on?
30
Back to Life?
31
Valentine’s Day — Foreboding Something?
32
Do only Fools Rush in?
33
Pondering his Voyage
34
Mortal Threats
35
Where to Go?
36
Just Exploring
37
No Time
38
Proof and Confusion
39
Contemplation
40
Preparations & Old Sensations
41
Flirtatious?
42
Confused
43
Going Crazy
44
Denial — The other Way Round!
45
Trust is Embarrassing
46
Imagination is Reality
47
Social Strain — Social Gain?
48
The Silent Sun
49
Silence
50
Was it all meant to be?
51
Abysmal Heaven & Towering Hell
52
When the Wind Blows
53
Sadness of Hope
54
Feeling of Change
55
Ultimate Betrayal?
56
Rage of Inversion
57
Open the Door?
58
Dreams out of Control
59
Cutting Close
60
Bidding Farewell