Contents
 Foreword
1 Introduction
2 The Beginning: or: the day he heard HER name
3 The first Beginning
4 The Roots of Evil
5 First sprouts of real love?
6 The First Denial
7 Adam, Eve & The unambiguous Signs of Love
8 Second Denial — And First Doubts
9 Suprising Sensations
10 Why?
11 Bless you!
12 Return of the Signs
13 More Signs — More Fear
14 Wait and See?
15 A Withering Soul?
16 Day of Surprise
17 Decay or new Growth?
18 Stupefied Soul
19 The Chamber of Secrets has been opened
20 Flashbacks
21 The End?
22 Ignorant Crowd?
23 Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door
24 Smashed to the Ground — In Front of Heaven’s Door
25 Last Visit to Heaven / Hell — The End?
26 Reflections
27 What now?
28 Nothing happens
29 What the heck is going on?
30 Back to Life?
31 Valentine’s Day — Foreboding Something?
32 Do only Fools Rush in?
33 Pondering his Voyage
34 Mortal Threats
35 Where to Go?
36 Just Exploring
37 No Time
38 Proof and Confusion
39 Contemplation
40 Preparations & Old Sensations
41 Flirtatious?
42 Confused
43 Going Crazy
44 Denial — The other Way Round!
45 Trust is Embarrassing
46 Imagination is Reality
47 Social Strain — Social Gain?
48 The Silent Sun
49 Silence
50 Was it all meant to be?
51 Abysmal Heaven & Towering Hell
52 When the Wind Blows
53 Sadness of Hope
54 Feeling of Change
55 Ultimate Betrayal?
56 Rage of Inversion
57 Open the Door?
58 Dreams out of Control
59 Cutting Close
60 Bidding Farewell